For you.

                                                                 Untuk kamu :')

Cahayaku.

Pabila hidupku gelap dan kusam, kau hadir bagai cahaya lilin yang menerangi semula kegelapanku.

Pabila hidupku dilanda pelbagai cabaran dan ujian, hanya dengan melihat kehadiran kau telah mengembalikan semangat aku.

Pabila diriku sudah tidak mampu lagi untuk  memberikan senyuman, kau hadir dan mengukir senyumanku kembali.

Pabila aku sudah tidak berdaya untuk berdiri, kau ibaratkan tongkat yang menolong aku untuk kembali berdiri dan berjalan.

Pabila aku berasa sedih, kau pasti cuba untuk berbuat apa sahaja untuk melihat senyumanku semula.

Pabila aku berasa seperti hendak berputus asa, kau kembalikan semangat aku.

Kau lah penyeri hidupku.

Sejak hadirnya kau dalam hidup aku, aku sentiasa tersenyum dan tertawa. Walaupun apabila kau tiada bersama denganku, aku masih mampu tersenyum kerana aku dapat merasa kehadiran kau. Kau telah memberikan aku semangat untuk meneruskan hidup.  

Aku percaya, Allah telah menurunkan kau dalam hidupku pasti ada sebabnya. Allah telah mengisi kekosongan jiwa aku dengan kehadiran kau.

Setiap saat dan detik bersama dengan kau, akan aku jadikan ia kenangan yang paling terindah dalam hidupku. Setiap kata kata yang kau beri, akan aku jadikan ia pedoman dan peringatan dalam hidupku. Setiap senyuman yang terukir pada wajah kau, akan ku jadikan ianya penyeri hidupku.

Setiap kali aku menatap wajah kau, aku dapat merasakan ketenangan dan kedamaian. Setiap kali kau merenung tajam mata aku, aku dapat melihat erti kasih sayang. Setiap kali aku bersama dengan kau, aku seperti dalam duniaku sendiri. Dan setiap kali kau melemparkan senyuman pada aku, aku dapat merasakan kebahagiaan.

Kasih dan sayang aku terhadap kau hanya lah ibarat sang puteri yang bercinta dengan sang putera idamannya di dalam dunia fantasi. Aku hanya mampu berangan sampai ke awangan, tetapi kau tetap tidak akan mengerti betapa bermaknanya kehadiran kau dalam hidupku. Aku pasti, jika jodoh itu milik kita, kita tetap akan bersama satu hari nanti. Insyallah :’)

TEMPEK!

Berdasarkan tajuk blog saya di atas, harini ialah hari menempek Muhd Rohaizad walaupun birthday dia semalam kan. So yeah it supposed to be a surprise, but then tak jadi. Amal, me, Aut, Et, Idlan, Mustaffa, Iman, Alif and Ro breakfast kat Darus, then lepak2 and celebrate birthday Ro, tiup2 lilin and nyanyi lagu 'Happy Birthday' *tak malu nyanyi kuat2 depan orang ramai and ane2 kat situ :p 

Then tiba tiba semua orang macam kelam kabut pegi bayar bil, aku duduk situ blur nak MAM. Ade yang kata nak balik, ade kate nak 'melabur' kat rumah kejap and macam macam ragam budak2 ni. I was so curious with their behavior that time, then when i was still sitting there with my blur face, Aut suruh ikut dia. Okay dah ikut pegi kaunter semua, Aut explain. Terus muka tak blur dahh, ahahha! Mane la aku tau nak menempek dia secara sembunyi2 kan. Amal told me that he knew about the 'tempek tempek' thingy, lepas tu tiba tiba pulak dia orang nk buat senyap2. So whaat do you expect kan, mesti lah blur :D

Then separuh dah pegi padang 17, separuh lagi naik kereta dengan Mus. So tunggu je lah kat padang tuh, bila dah sampai Amal bawak Ro jalan2. *ceh kononya serious talk la tuh 

Sementara nk tunggu perfect time untuk tempek Ro, kita orang sembunyi2 dekat belakang tempat recycle tuh. Dengan secara tiba tibanya AKU PULAK YG KENE TEMPEK DULU -__-

Semua MUS punya pasal! Lepas tu semua ikut baling tepung dekat aku yang tak bersalah ni :/ . Lepas Ro dah otw jalan pegi basketball court, ramai2 lari dekat dia and Ro pun lari! Takleh bla betul jantan tuh, hahaha! But dapat jugak tempek dia harini, so i hope you had fun ye Ro :) I'm gonna upload some of the pictures , malas nak upload banyak2. So yeahh, enjoy the photos! 

;(

  I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. 

 I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

 I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

91011,

Subhanallah :') This is how the moon looks like tonight. Its beautiful! When i was chatting, suddenly i saw my twitter is full with "wow the moon tonight is beautiful" , "go out and see the moon!" , and i was soo lazy to go downstairs and take a look at the moon that people were saying. Dah kalau ramai sangat tweet and tulis kat Facebook, mane boleh kalau aku sorang je yang tak tengok kan. So berani kan la diri turun and keluar. Turun2 je, i saw my mum was reading newspaper. Bila dah bukak pintu semua, mak mesti pelik entah buang tebiat anak dia ni nak keluar malam2 buta. Then bila dah tengok, terus excited! I called my mum to let her look at the beautiful moon. We both were excited and mum start to call her siblings and tell them about this. And she even called Ida my second sister which is in Gombak to take a picture of it. Cause our DSLR is with her. Sampai orang yang suruh tido pun dia kejutkan suruh pegi tengok. Hihihi excited kan? :)
So yeah, i'm not gonna forget today's date. Not only because i got hurt by his respond today, but today's date mean so much to me because i still got the chance to see the moon. Alhamdulillah :')

I never told you,

After 7 months i kept this secret, today finally i told him. Yeah and it was errr i dont know what to say. But it was painful for me. Macam biasa lah aku je yang kene tahan sakit kan. Dari dulu macam tu sebenarnye. His respond was not so good :/

Entah la, but i never thought that he would say that. I really thought there's something between us. I dont know, maybe i was the only one who felt like that. But not him. Well, i was quite dissapointed but its okay. I can go through this. Because i know i've been through a hell lot more painful than this. But for me, this is a new situation. I've never been in this kind of situation before. You know, when you like a boy but he doesnt know about it, then you wait till the perfect time to tell him, and when you tell him, he said that he likes you as a friend only. Yeah, that kind of situation. It's normal in teenagers life i think? So yeahh, how bitter it taste, i have to learn to swallow it anyhow.

 I feel like telling him this - "Why dont we give it a try" . Should i say that? I really dont know what to do now :'(


BUT I HAVE TO BE STRONGGGGGGGGGG! YOU CAN DO IT ELLA, YOU CAN. Just have faith :')

You and I collide

I dont know what to say anymore, but today was like a day that i made a shocking decision. I decided to give up. After 7 months, today i feel like giving up. I'm getting tired of this feelings. This one way feelings. Why should i hold on if there's nothing for me to hold on anymore? I was the only one who tried to get close to you. I was the only one who always approach you first. I was the only one who always miss you whenever you're not around. It has always been me. ONLY ME! 

Today, is the first tears that flowed because of you. I dont know, but it feel so painful. It hurts me suddenly. I never thought that you could make me cry. I'm not gonna wait for the perfect time already, no never. Because i know, the more i wait, the more i'll hurt myself. That's it. Im not gonna wait anymore. Ape nak jadi, jadilah okay.