I never told you,

After 7 months i kept this secret, today finally i told him. Yeah and it was errr i dont know what to say. But it was painful for me. Macam biasa lah aku je yang kene tahan sakit kan. Dari dulu macam tu sebenarnye. His respond was not so good :/

Entah la, but i never thought that he would say that. I really thought there's something between us. I dont know, maybe i was the only one who felt like that. But not him. Well, i was quite dissapointed but its okay. I can go through this. Because i know i've been through a hell lot more painful than this. But for me, this is a new situation. I've never been in this kind of situation before. You know, when you like a boy but he doesnt know about it, then you wait till the perfect time to tell him, and when you tell him, he said that he likes you as a friend only. Yeah, that kind of situation. It's normal in teenagers life i think? So yeahh, how bitter it taste, i have to learn to swallow it anyhow.

 I feel like telling him this - "Why dont we give it a try" . Should i say that? I really dont know what to do now :'(


BUT I HAVE TO BE STRONGGGGGGGGGG! YOU CAN DO IT ELLA, YOU CAN. Just have faith :')